Thursday, May 26, 2011

One Really Bad Day....

Yesterday was simply put Just a really bad day for me. There is just so much "stuffs" roaming around in my head that I even feel rather ill. I do not even know where to begin. I do not know what to pray for or about. Honestly that is my problem...I can't figure out how to pray. Not that I do not know how to pray...I can do that; but more so...what and in what direction. Yesterday and today... I feel like a failure! I feel very OVER-whelmed!!!! There is so MUCH that is not in my control...People judge me and think that I can just go...and do...and fix it ! NOTHING is ever what it seems and no one...NO one mortal human will ever know what it is like in my shoes. (11 wide by the way!)...At points I do not even know what is bothering others I am having a time of it just to keep the list of things bothering me under control and under the 100 count!..Yep its that bad at times....And then's that one really evil thing...MONEY! Or the lack of it at the moment. Sorry I know I am not making any sense...And I am not being funny...Which bites...because I like being funny and finding the funny in things that are funny!...Did you follow that??? So in a nut shell it is me that is the issue and perhaps my own desires...BUT!!!... I do want what Jesus wants!...Good Marriage, Happy Healthy Kids, Husband with a good paying job, Children on the honor roll and in 3 different sports...(LOL I home school some of mine..and do I really want them to participate in 3 sports???)...I do not need a lot... I just need for what I do have to be ok and for it to work smoothly
Yeppers was having a not so good day that day...This was written way back when before summer 2011! So on days like that we just...HANG ON...and pray!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

If I told you everything....?

If I were to tell you all the thoughts that come across my mind; you would be in such a condition that I would need you to sign a disclaimer proclaiming I am NOT responsible for the mess in your pants! I mean did you know ...if you have long hair and if you lie across the bed and hang your head forward off the side of the bed and then brush it out straight in front of can cut your own hair and look at it at the same time...WAY easier than trying to cut it from behind you and try to see it and WAY better than asking your husband to trim it and then having a six inch chunk cut out...( You have my permission to read through that twice ...just so you get it...cause like that is one heck of a run on sentence.)
Did you know that six clucking chickens in the house just may drive me insane....been there before and it was not the fault of any chickens...but this time... I am sure the chicken will be the reason!...Yes you read that right? Go ahead ask me?....Dare ya? OK so there were 10...but some how over night four of them found their way onto my hit list....The things my husband gets to do...Poor fella! And no ...NO chickens where harmed.....Ummm? Just relocated!
OK so the Paul clan now consists of 2 adults, 3 kids, 2 rabbits, and 6 chickens!!!!!Someone tell me what WAS I thinking? Oh yes I know... I was thinking omelets, quiche, scrambled, fried, boiled, over-hard.....but most of all in my fridge for me to use....After I wash the chicken crap off of them!!!!
If I were to tell you everything then and only then would you be subject to truth... It might FREAK you out...It may run you off! has so been known to happen. Now never fear...I have learned just to nod and smile and say nothing...It has taken me years but I can do it....But do not ask me a real of them that you want a real answer could get awkward!!! For you at least.
And one other last little tid bit....39 is just too young to be having senior moments. A friend of mine has suddenly began getting lost going to and from her and from places...or areas...she has known all her life! Poor lady what is up with that...I shall not name names! But I do not think she is even 39 yet? It is also at this age when I have realized I am too old and not smart enough to still be having my period. I mean if I can no longer figure out exactly how to get all those wrappers off all those sticky parts and then get them stuck onto my's time to call this to an end. Seriously, WHO thought all these WINGS things in ya underwear was a good thing! Certainly was NOT some lady who can not for the life of her get them to stay stuck and folded around the underside of her bloomers. So if you happen to see me out and about and headed to the "Little Ladies Room"...( Little Ladies Room? Who the crack every gave that place a name like that? Don't get me started on that) Anyways....Squirrel!!!!........Yes Yes Yes... if you see me headed to the bathroom with a peculiar look about my face and a strange walk...NO I do not have to go pooh pooper do!!! But I may for sure have something sticky taped to certain parts that I have...that should absolutely NOT have sticky tape stuck to them. If you have no idea what I am talking about them...A) YOU are male. or B) you are not 39 yet!!!! Yes folks this does happen and it can happen to you. Might even happen in the middle of church...and for goodness sake you know it's going happen in Wal-Mart!!!....Now y'all go have ya a good evening..go think about something funny and love on your loves...makes for some of the best sleep...Well that and go do that too! (Now you knew I was not going to blog and not say something "religious"!) So sorry I am a JESUS FREAK!!!!( Sorry GUYS for any unintended TMI)....(or is it TMV) Yes maybe BOTH!!! Soooo Sorry...well really NOT!!!!Have a good evening...Love ....Y'all...( I so sound like Paula Dean!) Now I do love me some Paula Dean.....

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

The Runnaway Bunny

The Runaway Bunny is a book by Margaret Wise Brown. Years ago we bought this book for Grace or possibly it's nearly 11 to 9 years old. I have read this book a BAZILLION times!!!! Recently I have had the repeated blessing of reading it to my youngest child yet again for like a BAZILLION times!!! Oh how I love to curl up with a kid of any size and age and read this book; along with the book Goodnight Moon also by Margaret W. Brown.
The Runaway Bunny is a story of a little Bunny who wants to run away! Duh! Hence the title...Right? When little bunny tells his mother he is going to run away, the mother says, " If you run away... I will run after you...For you are my little bunny." I do not get much past that first page before the tears start to roll...and roll and roll.....I never had a mother to come after me. I did however have a great grandmother and some super awesome teachers who I give tremendous credit for carrying me through some very long and dark days. I owe or rather I credit all of them with saving my very life. Trust me... I had a rough time during my childhood and into my teenage years. Yes I had a mother...but she made it a habit of abandoning me...and on more than one occasion would do so unannounced and leave me unattended...Yep just up and leave and never be heard from for months on end...With that said, fast forward...many years and here I am with 3 beautiful blessings of my own and I can not even fathom the idea of doing such a thing. Sure I have my bad days when I feel like...walking away...for in truth I do not get nearly enough rest or support as a MOM that perhaps I feel I am due. But with that said...again... I would never do such a thing, and so as I was reading this story on one particular night or perhaps it was an afternoon or maybe a morning...They all blend in around here.....I drew a conclusion or maybe I should say a parallelism between the relationship between this child and his mother and the relationship each and everyone of us has with God. Yes I said ALL of us...
The mother in this book...she climbed mountains, she swam streams, she walked tight ropes, she became a tree, she even became the wind in order to guide a rescue her wondering son. God sent his son to offer us a guiding hand....even to those who do not believe. When you look at that newborn and wonder where did that smell come from or how in this world is her skin so soft...God is there. When you succeed, when you fail, when you wonder around in the world...He is there. You can run nowhere that he is not...ocean yep that His handy work, your loss or gain He is there. In the storm, in the sunshine...over and under every rock. On your wedding day, during your business travels, while you screw off on FB!!! YES he's there took him there and he is never going to leave you. He loves you too much. He will give you every opportunity to seek him as is in his plans. He is relentless and perseveres through all of your life. More than any mother...or any worldly father. HE is after all...your FATHER. He loves you! know its coming......So...go get your BIBLE and seek him. Matthew 7: 7-8, Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be open. You are loved and He is there...wherever and however you are right now in this moment and every other moment you are blessed with. Seek Him.....